So my wonderful blue and yellow Under Armour shoes that I purchased last May finally died. I probably put about 5,000 miles on them. They were very lightweight and comfortable. And never hurt my foot even once. And now they do. That is how I could tell they were on their way out. Now I… Continue reading Running My Shoes Off
Since that last entry below, I’ve moved back in with my mate and tried to reform my ways. I hurt her very badly and consider it a privilege to be in her life. I mess up every now and again and I need to get real. It may take some time, but I aim for… Continue reading A New Vibration
Well. I messed up royally. I messed up so bad I left my mate hurting horribly. Confused and broken, her heart hurts because of me. I am only to blame in this situation. I was confused and befuddled at the time that this all went down, but I can see clearly now. Clearly I was… Continue reading The Deed is Done
Utah drivers are the worst. THE WORST. I remember reading a statistical poll that concluded Idaho had the worst drivers. I agree that Idaho drives like morons, it is true – however, I think Utah needed to be #1 on the list for bad driving. When I moved here, I was appalled. Coming from WA… Continue reading Oh, Utah.
So it is March. Already. Wow… time flies. I went crazy there for a while. I went depressed a few weeks ago, which turned into a mixed bipolar episode into mania after starting a new anti-depressant which triggered it. Now I am feeling like I am headed toward stability. I look back on the past… Continue reading March – No More Madness
I think it is time for me to say things. I haven’t wanted to talk about how I feel, because I really don’t KNOW how I feel. I just talked to my step-dad for the first time since the memorial service for my mother. He is not doing so great, as is to be expected,… Continue reading So. Time To Write.
So. I’ve been trying to ‘hang in there’ after my mom’s death, and at first I think I was doing ok. I went through a few stages of greif, like they say you do. Anger and sadness so far. But now there’s a 6th stage that I really don’t like. It is called Extreme Anxiety.… Continue reading It’s all Relative
My mom died Thursday January 14th at 1:00AM Pacific time. I don’t know what else to say. I flew up there for her service and spent time with family. I’m missing her everyday.
Right now, my mom’s name is Jan. She is a loving mother and a good wife to my step-father. Her sense of humor is very sarcastic and fun. She is fun to talk to for hours and hours, about anything. She and I share a lot of the same beliefs in things like spirituality, metaphysics,… Continue reading My Mom
So it is a new year. This means resolutions and reflections. Resolutions to improve something in your life for the coming year, and looking back on your previous year, remembering the fun times and the bad times. I used to never do resolutions, because I’d see other people break their own not too long after… Continue reading A little late and more in-depth